it is 2026. we wonder what to say next, and the wind is still blowing.

eleven.

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we keep asking
questions like “will this make me
happy?” when instead it might be
more interesting to ask what
it would sound like if the
leaves on every tree were poems
written on little sheets of
paper and everybody in the
world began to read them out
loud all at the same time and
then the wind began to blow
and the poems went flying in
the air all around and
everybody just watched it happen
in complete silence we
can't help but smile a little,
and then a lot. and someone
hugs the stranger to their
left and we all begin to
laugh. we ask ourselves
another question we can't hear
because of all the wind and
poems, and that's just fine we
realize we didn't want to know
the answers anyway when
there are so many confusing
and beautiful things all
around us anyway. we just keep
laughing and grabbing poems out
of the air, sometimes
deciding to read them and
othertimes using them as napkins.
the wind, the wind is
laughing too.

twenty five.

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. we do our best to aren't
listening repetition getting.
every more accurate, a little
faster repetition. every a
little more accurate and with
accurate a accurate. the faster,
with fewer mistakes. the
conversation outside going the
conversation heated aren't
listening we aren't listening. we
. every repetition our
while we do our pretend little
repetition little more accurate
little faster fewer the
conversation going on outside going
on heated while
conversation going. we do while we
pretend we aren't every a little
more accurate, a little
accurate, a getting more
accurate, faster a little a
aren't pretend we aren't to
pretend we repetition getting a
little aren't listening.
every listening. every do our
best to do we aren't
listening. every do every
repetition getting more listening
. every repetition
listening, repetition getting.
getting every repetition.
every aren't listening while
we do our while we heated
while we do our best to
becoming going on outside
becoming we to . every more
accurate, the conversation
going on the on conversation
and little more getting a a
conversation going. the
conversation going on outside
becoming going. the
conversation going on we heated while
listening. aren't listening. a
more faster a little going
while our repetition getting
a a little mistakes, a and
with fewer mistakes more.
aren't listening. every a
every repetition getting we
aren't listening . little more
getting a little more listening
pretend little getting a little
more accurate aren't
listening. every repetition
listening. we do our best becoming
heated while to. a little
accurate a little getting a
little, with fewer going on the
conversation mistakes. the
conversation going on conversation
going on outside fewer
mistakes. with fewer the, a
little faster and with fewer
mistakes. the faster and outside
becoming heated do going
becoming on outside do our
repetition getting more. every
repetition getting a every
repetition getting we aren't
listening repetition getting a
every repetition listening
our repetition faster and
mistakes. the fewer and with
fewer mistakes. the
conversation going on outside while
we. every repetition.
every repetition getting we
aren't listening a accurate,
with conversation going on
conversation going on outside
becoming heated do heated while
to. every listening we
aren't accurate, repetition
getting a little more accurate
little faster and little
faster repetition accurate

eighteen.

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realize we haven't up in
hours stood stood pressing
significance lights are are are
praying. around breaking apart
by piece as we keep trying
cathedrals architectures in the
concrete,,, we we begin to feel we
we begin to feel jittery
chair and our our our now when
the are flickering
flickering so to who what we want all
around us we keep trying to glue
things back together with
words words and theories
later in concrete, to feel we
hours, this this chair of us us
much significance pray pray
know, should.. systems all
around us and our lives
fracturing

nineteen.

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the corner of the room
empty except for the little
grooves in the floorboard, we
smile. the moments going and
going in such a beautiful way
that we can't take our eyes
off it, noticing just how
inconsistent things are, how blurry
and arbitrary the
differences seem between things and
people and ideas, how musical a
painting can sound the ink never
seems to dry.

twenty one.

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we wonder what would
make us happy, what would
make this headache go away
which keeps distracting us
from everything going on the
scratching pens and observations,
a quote out of context we
leave the incense burning
when we go to sleep even
though we know it's a fire
hazard and it puts our lives in
danger and the lives of all the
other people living above and
below us, and all of the people
we know and the people who
care about what happens to us
even though we never asked
them to. we wonder why it
should matter that something
happens to anyone, we wonder why
we care. and everything is
so quiet.

twenty eight.

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noticed us understood
to just not sometimes we
can ourselves sight and
walk out another , and we
glance at the clock and wonder
eight yet

five.

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quietingly, the
softmurmurs not trying to say
anything in particular or
convince anyone of anything,
prefering to let things just exist
the way they are and stay the
same when they need to stay
the same and change when
they need to change, or not
even need to stay the same or
need to change but maybe
instead want to stay the same or
want to change, or rather: it
just happens. it just
happens, and it keeps just
happening. the softmurmers not
even speaking about what's
going on or what's not going on
but instead just
mentioning about whatever is on
their mind at that moment,
letting it out and letting it go,
the sound waves not
disappearing but echoing off a
thousand surfaces and every
blade of grass, split and
muffled and distorted and
echoed until they sound like
dead trees, the sun pushing
the waves around a little
through the screen door, gnats
in the air just sort of
moving around.

twenty.

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how everything is so
pink we we “can it ?” “can
while ?” does. the damp
outside. damp sticks from smell
we from outside. we why,
but for now we don't. for now
we don't. “can this “can it
a stay for . once, it does.
the smell of from outside.
damp. the. a slowmoving of
damp sticks a slowmoving
from sound how everything is
why stay like, for. the
smell we notice why why, but
for now it stay once,.

three.

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how did we get here? the
questions which keep making their
way inside our mouths as if
we never could learn from
the last time we couldn't
answer and instead only become
more unhappy and began to
throw things at the walls with
some inexpressible anger
screaming and shouting with a red
face and bulging veins,
fists again and again against
the door not even caring
what's on the other side, too
caught up with the idea of the
door being there in the first
place another why and another
if causing the lights to
flicker and the stove to begin to
smell like something is
burning so we all try to remember
what we had done in the
kitchen last but we can't
remember, and even the attempts to
remember make us shout with fewer
words, make us scream with our
fingers and pound harder and
harder on the door while the
wood is splintering here and
there and the doorframe
appears to budge this time or
that time or this time again
and again and again

one.

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and just like that, the
page turns for us. the next
series of random numbers fill
the screen and we begin to
imagine dots and we begin to
connect them and agree and
disagree with them, relate to
them and question them and
share them. the page glares.
we glare. everybody is
glaring and nobody is laughing
and then one of us starts
laughing, and another one of us
starts laughing, and we are all
laughing and the paper is
laughing and the inkdots are
laughing: the numbers are
laughing too.

twenty four.

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things are and
sometimes it that we go . and
sometimes things okay, and
sometimes they are sometimes they
are, they are happens one to
trying. are are and from to the
without even they , go from one
the other are are not, and
sometimes they and sometimes it
and sometimes it they
sometimes it. and sometimes
things are not okay, they
sometimes sometimes, and it
happens that we from to to the
even not okay , and and and
sometimes it happens are, other
without even trying. not okay,
go other without trying.
and okay, and from one to and
sometimes without. even trying
sometimes, are , and sometimes it
they that we without from one
to sometimes things they
and okay, not okay it
happens without okay and things
and sometimes things
things and,, and sometimes
they are are, and it we and
sometimes it happens that from to
and sometimes things are
sometimes are go sometimes we the
other sometimes that we go
from one. okay sometimes
they are, and sometimes, and
and sometimes it happens we
go things are not okay, and
are , and sometimes it. and
are okay and other without
even trying are not ,,
sometimes they are okay ,
sometimes they are , without even
sometimes things they that we go
are not, are , and sometimes
it happens to the one to the
other without things things
okay, and sometimes they are
, , happens go from are are
and sometimes sometimes
that it happens that we go
that go other trying . even
trying not okay, and sometimes
they are , and and and
sometimes it it one to and
sometimes., sometimes it go from
one to the other without
okay okay go from one
sometimes things are and from we
even other without without
even okay sometimes, they,,
and sometimes it . and
sometimes and and sometimes they
are sometimes it happens
happens that we go from. and
sometimes things are are and
sometimes, and go from without the
sometimes things are they happens
that to. things even trying.
and sometimes they are, we
without trying. okay, and from
one without even. the other
not they not okay go from one
to the we go sometimes go
from one one okay and things
and one to from one to ,
sometimes are , and sometimes one
to and not okay okay
sometimes we to the even trying
okay it that we go from other
without are

six.

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silence and quiet now. a
small voice humming and
laughing in the other room. a
crystal or some melting snow.
behinds toward while again
around where's or why's while
leftandright shrinking silently. a
wooden creak. a scratch. all
centers things happening all
around, things just happening
and just being the way they
are. and we realize that this
is a beautiful thing. that
this is a beautiful thing.

twenty three.

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being absorbed by
transformed some bits so resonant,
how climb trees we it out
joke without a these, the and
the same screams and the
hugs violins our going
around we other room every
moment all us is landing room is
can somehow think. don't
because never feel the and our
and, the and able to see
everything what every person sort
staring us in the floorboards
and makes us is resonant,
how and how wheels end it be
story without these with some
rock glue one screams and
smiles, fists, timer keeps
ticking our best pretending not
ink going around on
themselves voices from and we can't
temperature changing every moment
on piece of paper and how
the whole room can our skin
for a moment don't about at
all. we don't know things
repeating somehow don't would us,
more like sun our blood the
music, the keeps pushing
trees and we to it , what every
how moves around in the eyes
without absorbed bits of dust
makes us wonder why is trees
their. we end it out to a story
without a sentence to rock glue,
one screams the, keeps
ticking and best pretending not
to notice. around can't
help notice

sixteen.

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remember lines lines
lines can't shades of these
shades these coming coming the
coming back right colors
remember remember lines we many
lines becoming we we and
breathe breathe. we. sun coming
these colors shades names
remember and and so many lines.
incense smoke in lungs in our
lungs we we breathe breathe
questions the coming back right
cue remember lines lines we
can't lines and and that is
still glowing and somehow
becoming and somehow somehow
becoming smoke our breathe and we
we breathe breathe and we
breathe! isn't it we can't help
but starts can't remember
stick is still glowing and is
still glowing somehow lungs
we becoming in our and
breathe and and we and and in our
glowing and somehow becoming
becoming in our lungs and somehow
smoke we becoming smoke in
somehow we breathe and we
breathe and we breathe and we we
we breathe laughing we
breathe. and we breathe we help
but smile when starts when
on smile can't funny we
can't how we can't help but
smile smile when the sun
starts coming back smile when
the sun sun back right
colors on smile when sun of
these colors whose names
shades of colors whose and
lines and so and we we to to.
laughing ask questions. to ask
questions.. laughing questions
can't help how we can't starts
coming back back right of we
can't remember stick
remember that glowing somehow
becoming we and breathe breathe
breathe and we we breathe.
questions laughing it funny when
the names can't so many
lines. we lines we can't lines
and can't can't remember
lines many lines. we remember
that stick of incense the
stick of incense is still
glowing and our becoming in
becoming smoke in in incense

thirty one.

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a goal a in supposedly
hours this thing we in, what
anyone is or saying saying it
quite understand saying why
we are saying, sun's belly
breath every breath as it and
way shaped the way shaped
the possibilities to
thought, so ways to so ways many
and roll a chord build a
build ways to when it seems a
color in a new a, new tones of
voice combinations of words,
probabilistic and their emptiness or
soullessness we if we prefer to if of it
illusion breaking illusion
breaking. the illusion. the
illusion breaking down, we, blue
out of in a we don't
recognize or when a colors the
librarian or an old friend we
haven't old friend we friend we

four.

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it's hard to speak
sometimes. we are frustrated with
ourselves for our
inconsistencies once at peace and
allowing things to be just the way
they are and want to be,
always taking action and never
taking action,
leftandrighting with the leftandright
once again wishing things
were a different way or that
the coin had landed on the
other face; we can't figure
out who we are, and we aren't
quite sure if that question
leads anywhere hard to find
the energy to say anything,
too many responses waiting
behind each option which never
seem to go anywhere
positive, anywhere that doesn't
hurt anybody or dissipate
into the grass as if nothing
had happened in the first
place and we begin to wonder if
anything actually did or does
happen or if we had somehow just
thought it all up out of some kind
of desperation and
confusion aimed at nothing in
particular, cycles going back and
forth but never quite the same
way, always surprising
somehow and adding to the
confusion and lack of any sense of
place, the feeling that we are
nowhere and the feeling that we
are getting nowhere.

zero.

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and all at once things
are so quiet, a tiny hiss
from the walls, distant
clanging of a ventilation fan. we
breathe with the sunlight,
passing clouds causing these
little pulses in the sunglow
and somehow we feel it in our
toes even though we can't
quite tell why the wind
chooses the pitches it sings
against the window, why one
harmony should point to
another, why every story has some
sort of climax where
elements and trajectories
culminate into some bigger thing
as if we had been heading
there all along as if there
were some kind of purpose
behind the penscratches or
where this leaf decides to
fall in this rotting pile we
notice a pain in our lower back
from bad posture and some
strange sense of pressure from
the bottom of our right foot
now the ventilation fan
slowing down into a periodic
banging; we notice a coin lying on
the ground but we can't make
out which side it landed on.
do we care? is it good to
care? would it matter if we
knew? we are staring at the
coin and the coin is staring
back.

twenty nine.

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we suspect that things
just happen somehow and we
can't help but smile a little
and then laugh at how absurd
it is that we ever even
think about things like
numbers and days of the week,
what two things happening at
the same time might sound
like if someone were to
listen (we suspect nobody is)
and if they were trying to
write things down as they
listened. we stop worrying so much
about scheduling and books
and start thinking (not
worrying) about what might be for
breakfast tomorrow or why we cross
one thing out in place of
another when we are writing
without any particular sense of
intention to begin with, just
going across lines one by one
with a scratchy pen and going
straight on to the next word which
bounces through our ear just
going with it and still just
going with it.

nine.

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we are breathing. and we
are still breathing. one
thought and another passing by
in the street while we ask
ourselves if this is going
anywhere if we should instead be
focusing on something else like
the way the smoke is
drifting away from the incense
stick, or the sound our eyelids
make when we blink. is there a
place for rushing anymore?
the softmurmurs again,
reminding us about our breath: and
a little blue bird lands
on the windowsill. it is
singing.

two.

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because the longer we
stare at the details, the less
we are sure they even
matter.

twenty seven.

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came from where from
what walls face we on the
someone care the someone we care
, how each knot did it
happen just sort of happen
their their just sort somehow
feel eyes for a close and like
we are floating our bodies
floating outside our bodies,
that that incense is somehow
, that the incense our to
we in now now dents in the
floorboard notice they came came
from each groove and scrape
along each of paint every

seventeen.

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marbles in a glass bowl,
not going anywhere in
particular seeming to wonder where
the birds get their
melodies, their strange rhythms
tinkling or rubbing cardboard.
the dark bottle looking
right back, eyes glimmering
so loudly with the
sunlight or fluorescent
flickerings or uncharged
batteries. the lithium looking for
water. how's this different?
asking between colorshades
and subject matter like it
were important or something
or something or something
or anothersong
thismomentingly or an old box of cereal,
casting shadows longer than
expected somehow while the light
reflects in its own color onto the
walls and the nearby desk
surface, papers scattered from
months before piled over each
other, some important some not
so much, some with colors
and blindly drawn
paintings and some printed out
from an old black and white
laser jet printer, whatever
that means, whatever those
meaning.

twenty six.

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and and relationships
pushing the up behind behind of
making themselves pushing up
behind each other which wrong
direction, could. goals sneaking
be the point point. goals
thoughts and interactions again
. ideas and these colors
and a smile smile.. it
squares and things, shapes sort
of geometries geometries
and to the way we, goals
ideas and and concrete, all
these colors and ideas
permeating while while we smile. it
squares and trangles shapes
trangles into other squares and
trangles, shapes sort of the
geometries and to not going maybe
into the thoughts again
goals sneaking into into the
the. goals again. all these
colors and ideas permeating
while we. happens trangles
into of squares and trangles
themselves geometries each and and
dominoes the wrong direction way
we expected or. goals
sneaking

twelve.

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we never seem to notice
the changes until they've
already happened. or at least
they are well into
happening. we wonder why that is:
the clouds evaporating and
the sun coming out, the air
getting so slightly warmer; a
single row of bricks painted a
different color. who the behinds
through before how's and where
when whenever the
againagain the words repeatingly
as we notice a little
cottonfluff drifting toward us. it
sticks to our ink, and we ask
again where meaning comes
from. a million coins being
thrown every instant, fields
of possibility so
terrifyingly wide staring us in the
eye so intensely we have to
look away and we notice this
little bug just flying around,
landing, and flying around
again. flying, landing, and
flying around again.

thirty.

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can't a good or, be if
anything if reject we ask “who
don't know. we we see can't
these questions are the place
when like it seems new second
which second new is we can't
with the moment or good
question good a moment laugh, and
and we, and we laugh. we
laugh next if. really and we
ask ourselves an ask
question in return in we are
unable we. and laugh laugh see
seems ears which is so like
think good question to begin
with at with at the moment or
how or and we laugh and

seven.

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tangling wires into
these bizarre shapes, rugs
with strange colors and
melodies waitingly, taking deep
breaths before the speech where
we finally speak our
minds: "won't everybody
please, please stop this
cruelty? can't we see how
unnecessary it is?" some glass
window creaking under winds,
some oil spilled in a parking
lot. how again the why's and
who's before and after or some
some behind throughingly, a
manual for writers of research
papers about electrical
engineering and game theory,
complex analysis and early
marxist painting; the
walls of this place have
shoulders that are
sagging, somewhere in these
pages an actual answer to a
question that matters. a new pair
of jeans, a holiday
decoration left up for months, a
lightbulb which doesn't fit even
though we could have sworn the
size was right at the store.
color combinations making us
feel sick and wonder why we
care about the dissonance,
why we should prefer one to
the other. we conclude that
we're all just bits of air
moving with the waves of some
song we can't hear: now
banging on the wooddrums, the
thoughts and the doubts, hopes or
imaginations throwing fists at the
organ keyboard, some body of
loud waters, some
electrical structure groaning in
rains particles trapped in
the breezings, the sine
waves, the eyeballs thrown
left and right or up and down
or is that a sign of
happiness, of
peacefulness? who's to tell what's
harmony and what's dissonance?
who's to tell the words of the
song when each moment's just
a few bits of data? hard to
see the picture from a
pixel, hard to find the poem
through a word a letter an inkdot
the arounds and behinds
lost somewhere in the mix,
the breath being exhaled
before we even noticed it was
inside our bodies, each note
rising just a little higher or
just a little more like dirty
wallpaper: we ask each other where
it happened. where the
music got faster. where the
blue became green, where the
light was switched on and the
newer waves began to
interfere with things and distort
the shapes, canceling out
or multiplying or
performing more complicated
operations until the noise is noise
and the signal is noise and
the noise is still noise yet
somehow wider, more sideways
and spinningly and
uppingly and backwardly, more
harsh and out of sync, now neon
colorlines and batteries, strange
gaps in the spiral not
patterns but something about
them which makes us feel the
walls are moving further away
and the room is becoming
smaller, that one moment is
another and the second hand is
somehow different this time
around. we cannot help but go to
sleep again, this time with a
strange smile and already
looking forward to coffee. this
time with socks and a thicker
blanket. this time with the
windows open: and in comes the
cooler air.

fourteen.

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working as usual the
stays and and and nobody
really seems seems to care
about. agains wind.. agains
beforemaroon underthere, a
beforemaroon eyes again a color under
a inside moving so slowly
but the the clock seems to
clock to be with those clunks
and counterpoint
conversation stays the same and
nobody to care seems to agains
wayingsong or,, the with the eyes
again with questions and to
see are stuck inside things
all and little fingers and
woodenbits suggest about the.
agains eyelids ,

eight.

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we accidentally
imagine ourselves as having for
a head this strangely
shaped box or a bird feeder with
a triangular roof or
something similar and we are
sitting in the front passenger
seat of an old car and someone
we care a lot about asks,
who are you? and we
think for a minute, and then
another. we aren't able to answer
with anything except a held
hand, and we somehow find
ourselves caring more about them
just because they asked.
they can't answer either,
and the grip gets tighter
and they aren't making eye
contact but that's okay because
we aren't looking anyway
and we are both these
strange wooden boxes attached
to bodies, heads without
eyes which still say so much,
eyes without laughinglines
which always find new things
to smile about an itch
behind our ears, the way this
piece of paper falls on the
ground, the sound of an overhead
lamp switching on laughing
about nothing in particular
and everything in
particular, wanting to want
everything and wanting to want
nothing, to feel everything and
to feel nothing, or at
least something the grip
getting tighter and we remember
how okay it is, how
beautiful it is and how funny it is
that poetry and music might
be the same thing after
all, that hiding is okay
sometimes and being naked is okay
too, that sometimes things
lead to other things, and
sometimes they don't, and
sometimes things just happen and
they keep just happening and
they don't stop. they don't
stop and it seems like they
never will, so it starts
making sense to just accept
this and close our eyes and
smile a little but somehow
this feels impossible. we
get frustrated and start to
do things we don't want to
do, blaming other people
for things nobody had
control over in the first place
and jumping to conclusions
and making assumptions
about other people and their
intentions and what they want or
what they are afraid of. we
forget that they are us, that
their grip is getting tighter
and that nothing is okay for
them either. we remember
that their boxy head is
crying and we have been trying
not to notice. we remember
that we are all the same
person born into different
bodies, and that this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing.

twenty two.

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which slantingway or
combination making one thing work
and another not? the
vibrations more quiet every time we
lean our ears closer trying
to hear inside the sounds.
we are aware of our actions
but try not to notice. the
sun outside making this
fuzzy kind of sound against
the grass. we pause and just
breathe for a while. where again
the thisthat theringly,
the second hand ticking by
again and again while all
these angles crackling, we
breathe for a while longer and
the sun keeps making that
sound and we keep sniffling
from seasonal allergies. a
bird call we don't
recognize. we can't help but smile
at the sound of people
laughing and somehow the voices
make this sort of harmony
against the windchimes and we
hear all these acoustic
vibrations buzzing inside our
chests and making us feel not
warmer but more okay. more
okay.

ten.

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we ask ourselves some
question we can't hear, muffled
because our heads are
underwater, this cold sensation
pressing on our foreheads while
we feel our socks becoming
heavy, cottonfibers grabbing
skin and dragging behind our
feet, cold passing between
our toes. maroon painted
walls and a thick sweater,
crinkling plastic bag full of
snacks. we notice it is becoming
later every moment, and that
as soon as we count one
number there is another in
front of that, always room for
another one or zero or eighty
seven or pencilcase
dirtyshoe, these power outlets
rusting over even though we
can't see where the water
could have come from fading in
the carpet telling which
way people walk most
without asking why they walk it
so often when it seems
there are so, so many other
ways to go and that this way
isn't even the easiest or most
efficient or beautiful or
surprising: they are taking the path
because it is the path they take,
and we can't help but
laughalittle at how beautiful that is
not to say that one is better
than another or that anyone
is wrong for going the way
they do or that we think we are
better than going that
particular way to the couch, but
that we know in the end we are
going to go that way too and
that's just fine. it's just as
good an option as any so we
don't see a reason why not it's
beautiful enough and it's
surprising enough and that itself
may be the most beautiful
and surprising thing of all
at the moment.

fifteen.

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there isn't. maybe if
there. but there isn't
ceiling. emails ceiling. from
real people, all these
situations branching to be from
situations branching out into
entire into impossible up just
going we saw first end with. we
first going with the one to
weigh. end up we saw for any
looking for our remember we left
them different
circumstances calling for for
circumstances for. all these
different all these different
ways of dealing smiling one
of us smiled first

thirteen.

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we wait for a few minutes
and wonder if it would be
okay for us to ask now: "is
this beautiful?" we wonder
if nobody noticed and we
watch the air just sort of move
around through the leaves. we
take another breath with the
sunlight and feel warmer.
throughs and arounds
behindingly the now nowing while
again the time continues and
stops and continues again.
circles of ink we close our eyes.
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